I feel like a chotch

I'm sure everyone has experienced this more than once in their life, today was my turn. I made a comment to a friend that was intended to be just a silly comment, and it just ended up being the completely wrong thing to say, annoyed her, and now I feel like not only the biggest rude and offensive moron ever to walk the face of the earth, but I think I probably hurt her feelings.

I keep telling myself that it's okay, apology was made, forgiveness sought, and all that, but this event is a reminder to me of how important it is to watch what you say and to think before you speak. I can be a real idiot sometimes and say things where instantly after I say them, I knew it was the wrong thing to say. But you can't take back your words, can you? You can append them, you can try to amend your mistakes, but once something is said, it's said. How terrible that can be sometimes.

I want to be a person whose speech is full of grace and compassion, who builds others up rather than tearing them down. I failed in that today, but there is always tomorrow. I think that's a goal that many of us need to seek.

In the meantime, I'm back into the old routine of, "I really didn't mean it like that. I'm sorry." Sometimes I can be the biggest jerk in the world...

Luke