Frustration and Honesty
I've been getting...I'm not sure how to describe it exactly. I'm a generally-content person who has been getting a lot more frustrated overall; little things over several aspects of life are annoying me more than they used to, and they're adding up. Simultaneously, much larger gaffes are lingering. Bah.
What I'm discovering -- and while this has good aspects to it, I think it's a bad thing overall -- is that I'm getting much less reserved and much more blunt with dissenting feelings as I have them. Certainly there's good aspects to this, but considering I normally have the tact of a bulldozer, inhibitions are important, and losing them is probably not the best thing for me.
The problem is, I'm at the point where a lot of things that are upsetting me seem to be out of my control (although I suppose it's possible that this is an errant perception). So, I more or less just chase my tail and scream about them; things don't change.
I was thinking about the so-called "Serenity Prayer":
Lord, grant me the serenity
To accept the things I cannot change
The courage to change the things I can
And the wisdom to know the difference
I think my issue is that I don't have the wisdom to know the difference. Lord, please give me that. :) I don't like not being content; I'm used to being content in most any situation so this is a foreign feeling to me, and I very much do not like it.
My goal for the next couple of weeks is to rediscover my normal contentment that I've lost so far this year.
Posted by Luke at 10:04 p.m.
(In response to Luke looking over my shoulder) No, no sarcasm here.
I wish I could offer you anything on this front but I have it as well and, I think, a touch moreso than you. Unfortunately, I've given up on screaming and simply chase my tails quietly.
If you find contentment, let me know so I can buy some too. :D
Posted by Daniel on 2008.03.11 at 2:36 a.m.
I think the fundamental problem for most of us is having the wisdom to know the difference. In my case, it's often that I'm foolish enough to get them confused. :)
I'll pray for you (and myself as well) that God will grant us that wisdom.
Posted by Chris on 2008.03.11 at 3:14 a.m.
You will get through this and plateau at a certain level of contentment. Then something else in your life will happen to disrupt it. Then a plateau....disruption...plateau. And so it goes.
Just consider this a time of learning and stretching your self, your knowledge, and your skills. I'm going through a similar time myself (just when I thought I had it all figured out, dammit).
Posted by Tracy on 2008.03.12 at 1:25 p.m.
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